Husband m got meeting in Kedah and tomorrow he will return. Usually every weekend he will pick me up here and send me back after he finish work on Sunday. Im grateful enough to have him as my husband. The person who has enough time to spend with me even though we hardly to see each other on weekdays but we still got time to meet up on weekend. It is true that long distance relationship is really hard.

I called mom right after finish work unfortunately she didnt pick up my call and i called dad. He said mom was out with her friend to shop new curtains. Mom looked so excited to celebrate this coming raya and a new family member soon. I rarely talked more than five minutes with dad and usually i will spoke about something really important. Opposite with mom, i could talk to her more than hours gossiping here and there with her. May Allah protect my parents and grant them the highest level of paradise.

Last night i was dreaming of you. How could i forget u? Ive got no idea. U always appeared in my dream every time i try to do so. I accept the reality of our life that we are never ever getting back together. The harder i tried the more failures ive been through.

Im happy with my current life though i know that i will unable to forget a person like u. Im living with a new person, new characters, new physical looking, new love and so on...
may all of us be granted happiness here n hereafter. Aminn

I dont know how many new post i have written and most of the time i didnt publish it. I know no one will come cross to this blog since i stop promote it to the public. My broken english is one of the reason why i lost my confidence to let people know and read every single entry i had posted before.

Yesterday was a mother's day. Most people proudly wrote mother's day wishes to their mom. I do wish to my mom as well and she requested a multifunction vacum after she watched it at cjwowshop. I wondered what modernization has done to my mom. Because she's the only mom i have, of course saying "No" was definitely the right word. She was so happy after i made purchase. Anything for you mom, as long as u are happy.

While im writing this, it already 11.54pm. Tomorrow i need to attend a course at hospital. Every time i went to hospital it reminds me of someone that i unable to forget. The person used to be someone who was so dearly ro me but my fate was written that we will.never be together. I didnt want to bring up the past story of us again since he and me got our own life. Sometime he appeared in my dream thats the reason why forgetting that person really hard for me.

Dont be mistakenly judge me through what i had written. I do love my husband. All is because of the memories we had shared years before. They were too much to be get rid of. Im trying but still some of those beautiful ones really hard to be erased from my mind. I didnt care if the person totally forget me because he has his own life too. And surely he's already move on and trying to build up his life with his loved one. May god bless him always. Never thought our life turned out to be this way. We both settled down with unexpected person of our life. That what we said as "Jodoh".

its getting late already and i need to sleep now. May allah bless my journey in life and hereafter. I do forgive everyone for any wrongdoings to me and i hope i will be forgiven too.. good night