I woke up early this morning. Took shower before i performed subuh prayer. As the freaking cold water hit my body, my brain sent signal to body and it started to shiver as a response. I rub my body with a rose shower cream. The smell went deep into my nostril and made me ecstatic with the sweet scent of the rose.

I put a green kebaya and matched with olive colour shawl. Could see that the kebaya looked loose to me as i expected that i’d lost so much weight lately but still i avoid to check my current weight. I didnt know why but everyone i met said that i looked thinner than before. My husband also worried about drastically weight loss i had, he suggested me to check with a doctor. I was so freaking afraid to see doctor since my mind been manipulated with lot of negativity thoughts regarding this matter.
It was raining heavily and i could see through the door of my home that neighbour used an umbrella while carrying his two kids. I took an initiative to go early to work because i didnt want to stuck in tarffic jammed. Since my stomach already growling, i went to kitchen and grabba packet of instant onion flour to make cekofok bawang.
It took me less than 10minutes to finish cooking th cekodok bawang and i packed them into the purplish rectangular tupperware. Didnt know whose tupperware it is, i thought it’s mom as she used to make tupperware as her personal collections back then.
I arrived clinic 5minutes before 8. It was sweet and nice time of arrival. Could see few patients were waiting outside the clinic because the “closed” sign still hanging at the main door.
I entered into the treatment room and put a blue disposable gown on with a face mask tighten back of my head. I did finish with patients at almost 11 o’clock and rest in officer room.

Out of nowhere, my ffriend suddenly asked me to accompany her for weight check up because  our penimbang was broken almost a year. I waited for her to finish measuring her weight then i did mine. My weight really surprised me because i never had that kind of weight before. The lightest weight ive ever had throughout my life.

I didnt know what to do. I thought that i just  need to find something that i loved to eat in order to gain weight in addition to maintain an ideal BMI.. That’s the best way for this time being.

I got so many stories to write. Due to time constrained, i will updated in the next entry.

I wish this week move fast. I really cannot wait this coming 15th of January. I will be report my duty in Terengganu. On that day i will know where is my workplace. I already called the person incharged regarding transfer matter, en amir. He said 7 officers will be move out from Terengganu and 5 officers will be coming in and im one of the 5. For the time being, there will be vacancies in several clinics. Besut district is one of the critical district which demand a few senior officers there.  Hopefully im not the one that will be chose to serve there. Heheh.

Ive been told few clinics need to be occupied with new officers siluch as Kp Utc and orals urgery department in hsnz, kp hosp kemaman and 3 more are in Besut. I request to work in UTC since two vacancies there, but i dont know if my request will ne accepted or not.

I dont really like working in a new place because i meed to adapt with a new environment, new people etc. Whatever it is, i hope everything will be fine.