Few years ago, i madly in love with a guy that had made me felt that i couldnt live without him.
My world was him amd i never let anyone filled the empty space of my heart. Yes only him. In short, he was my dream guy. We publicly showed that we were really loved each other in media social till something happened that made me felt broken and fell apart. Started from the incident both of us deleted the pictures of us.
By that time, i realized that love may changed so did the human. I grieved and cried every time i performed prayer. I hoped Allah made me strong to continue my life as i did before. I got no one to tell my sad love story. Then I told mom about this because i got no closed friend that i truly believed on tgag time. For the first time in my life i cried for a guy who had stole my entire heart. In returned mom did scold me and she said that i was too early to be into love thingy. Inside, i felt like i wanted to shout at her because she didnt understood how sad and frustrated i am.
Few months or almost a year i grieved of my life and kept asked myself why did i had to go through this feeling. It was really painful and my heart felt been stabbed few times till it tore into pieces. I felt demotivated and every second i kept thinking of him which i tried so hard not to do so. Ynfortunately i failed. I started to busy myself with something beneficial in hoping that i could stoped thinking of him for a while. I started to join usrah and went to knowledgeable and religious talks. I did miss my old version of me.
Luckily we reunited as he apologized to me what he had done and promised the same thing wouldnt happen again. Because i still loved him, i did accept him back and my heart flattered and life became happy again.
However, that was a history. In reality i did married to a guy that i didnt know at all. He was a stranger that passed by which used to say hi to me. Never imagine that i married to a complete stranger who became a dearest person to my life. Never thought i will spend for the rest of my life with him. Never thought that he was the one that out of nowhere proposed me to marry him. Never imagined my dad just simply said yes when i told him about this eventhough he didnt know who was that guy. Never thought that i had to hurt the most dearest person to me. Never imagined that everything went so fast. It was like a flash of light strike a tree and in a flip second the tree burnt. I didnt have any odeas how to explained, and didnt know what i was done. Everything happened so fast.
That was my story of how did i married to my husband. I unintentionally did hurt someone’s life which i planned to keep his heart very well because i used to feel how painful it was been hurt by someone who was so dear to us. I failed but i didnt regret of what happened. Some things we could plan and alhamdulillah if it happened as it way but some didnt. We were only a small and contempted servant. We forgot who was our creator till we thought that we could mould every thing in life based on what we dreamed for. We were just a small tiny little creature and since we birth jodoh ajal and dead had been written in Luh Mahfuz. Who were we to prevent things from happen?
Redha.. yes we need to redha
