I was talking to my husband regarding what i want to achieve in my future life.
Actually it was more about what i felt regarding my job.
I would like to do something different instead of went to work everyday, did the same thing like treated patients upon their request which were normally scaling, filling, extraction and denture. I felt bored by doing the same thing everyday, repeatedly. I would like to do some other things that general dentist could do like crown, bridge, minor oral surgery and so on. It was my mistake too, rejected an offer last few  months  to be a permament officer in oral maxillofacial surgery department. I did interested to oral surgery but the other part that i tried to avoid was oncall. I didnt want to work other than office hour. I felt a bit regret of my own decision.

Hubs told me that if i would like to pursue my study, then he offered to pay for examinations fee. I need to pass two papers called MJDF Part 1&2 before applied for scholarship and specialty that i interested to. I thought twice about this because one paper cost about 4k and both will cost about 8k. And no matter what i need to struggle and make it pass.

Till now, i didnt know what i want to do. Felt that i lost my life track...

It is Ramadhan 10th already. Time flies so fast. This is the 2nd Ramadhan i celebrate with my husband but this year is a bit different compared to last uear. We've been in a long distance relationship for almost a year since he decided to buy a house nearby to his workplace. Every weekend i will go back to my home if my name wasnt listed as standby officer for oncall. I will have oncall at my own clinic straight for 10days, luckily there wasnt many cases during oncall and gratefully that we, officers only have passive oncall. So just stay at home, relax and wait for the calls. Along 5months i just attended 2 cases because in Gambang there wasnt any cases at all.

Cannot wait for a long cuti raya soon. This Hari Raya also a bit different compared to previous raya because we will have additional member of family. Insyaallah.